Nicole Kidman has found that she feels her emotions more deeply as she’s gotten older and is grappling with new life experiences like her children with Keith Urban growing up or her parents dying.
Nicole Kidman is taking a hard look at the hours of her life.
The Big Little Lies actress has made no secret of how her emotions have evolved as she’s gotten older, especially as she’s found herself experiencing new moments in life like watching her children grow up or her parents passing away.
“So life is, whew. It’s definitely a journey. And it hits you as you get older,” Nicole told GQ in an interview published Nov. 18, “it’s a wake up at 3am crying and gasping kind of thing.”
The 57-year-old—whose mother Janelle Kidman died in September—added, “If you’re in it and not numbing yourself to it. And I’m in it. Fully in it.”
Nicole noted that her emotions are “even more so” on the surface these days, as she raises her and husband Keith Urban‘s daughters Sunday, 16, and Faith, 13.
“Mortality. Connection. Life coming and hitting you,” she continued. “And loss of parents and raising children and marriage and all of the things that go into making you a fully sentient human. I’m in all of those places.”
Nicole has found those emotions are useful for her when it comes to many of her acting roles. As she admitted to GQ, “I’m willing to go to whatever place to make it real and deep, and certain things just click and it’s cellular.”
But she didn’t just share insight into her journey with grief and mortality. She also revealed the truth behind the now iconic 2001 photo of her which was widely believed to have been taken right after she finalized her divorce from ex-husband Tom Cruise, with whom she’d shares children Bella, 31, and Connor, 29.
John Nacion/WireImageHowever, Nicole confirmed that the rumor was “not true.”
“That was not me; that was from a film,” she explained, without naming the movie, “that wasn’t real life. I know that image!”
In fact, the Moulin Rouge actress is well aware of her meme-ability, even laughing about the clip of her awkward clapping that went viral after the 2017 Oscars.
“I had a massive heavy borrowed ring on and it was really painful,” she said, “and I was scared of wrecking the jewelry.”
She joked, “There’s always something behind the actual images that go out there, right?”
